Nightfall Chapter 104: Be at peace of mind

(Yesterday, I forgot to publish the request for leave. It’s really… a sin. Although I often cut off changes, the number of times that I don’t ask for leave is basically not because I worry that readers will wait for changes and waste time. As a result, I didn’t expect it and committed it. I’m really sorry for such a big mistake. There is still a chapter today. I will write slowly. I will write slowly and seriously. In addition, this chapter is very sour, but I really like this. Tune.)

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There are some leftover chicken bones under the tree.

Ning Que looked at the chicken bones and was silent for a long time.

The big dark horse snorted a little nervously, and looked back at the wooden house, feeling a little disturbed.

Ning Que suddenly turned around, led it to the wooden house again, and opened the door.

The room was still dark, there was no light, and it was empty and nobody.

Ning Que loosened the reins, walked to the window, and looked at the snow sea.

The oil lamp on the table was on, and Sangsang looked at him quietly.

He still couldn’t see her, but he knew she was here, so he started talking.

“Longqing is dead.”

He paused for a while, and continued: “In Yanbei, I killed him… I didn’t expect that this matter would end so easily. In my original arrangement, I was going to abolish him. , And then shut him into the gate of the Demon Zong Mountain, so that he will never be freed, just like Xiao Shishu did to Liansheng.”

“But then I thought, this is actually very unreasonable. He didn’t offend me too much, except that his attitude towards you was a bit bad, and he tried to threaten me with you, and none of that became a reality… Killed Xiaoxiao. He never hurt you, my reaction was a bit too intense.”

Ning Que turned around. Looking towards the dark room, he said, “I picked you up by the bark-free mulberry tree. The most intense emotions in my life were all because of you. At the beginning, I killed my grandfather, and then I went to Longqing, thinking When I first got up and entered Weicheng, I fought for you several times.”

Sangsang is very close to him. If there is no such barrier, or you can hear each other’s breathing, listening to him, her expression is still cold, but her eyelashes are slowly falling, seeming a little tired.

“I went to Lanke Temple and carved a lot of stone statues… your image.”

Ning Que took out the stone statue from his arms. Putting on the table in front of the window, he said: “I don’t know if you still remember what you said in the monastery when you fell ill that year, but I still remember.”

Sangsang looked at the table and looked at himself sleeping on his side, with a curious look in his eyes.

“Of course. The Weicheng I went to first. I always thought there was more important to you and me. You might stay there, but unfortunately I didn’t find you, um. I killed a lot of people there.”

Ning Que suddenly stopped speaking, after a long period of silence. Said: “I don’t want to say anymore… crying bitterly, stabbing yourself, forcing you out, that’s boring, I’m here anyway…”

He looked at the empty night in front of him and said, “You come out.”

No sensation, no need to remember, just ask calmly, just like in the past many years, you serve me tea, you pour me water, you put your feet in my arms and let me touch two well Put.

In the quiet wooden house, there was an inaudible sound, as if the thinnest paper was cut by the sharpest knife, and it was like the most brittle glass falling from a high altitude to the ground, shattered, and then opened.

The dim light gradually permeated the entire space, from one trace to ten thousand strands, finally illuminating the entire wooden house, illuminating the stone statue lying on the side of the table, illuminating Ning Que’s face, and her figure was also reflected.

Ning Que looked at her who had been gone for a long time, looked at her bloated waist, looked at her rudimentary animal skin clothes, inexplicably sad, stepped forward and hugged her in his arms and held her tightly.

Sangsang was expressionless and let him hold him, raising his head, looking arrogant, of course it can be said to be dull.

“Let go,” she said.

The green lion ran out from the corner, with his forelimbs low, making a threatening growl.

The big dark horse stared at it condescendingly, with violent eyes and clear meaning.

The Lioness quickly reduced his voice and became honest and well-behaved.

Ning Que hugged Sangsang and buried her head between her neck. Her voice was a little buzzing, a little vague, but it was very clear—ambiguity was the tone, and clarity meant the meaning.

“Don’t let go.”

Sangsang said coldly: “Let go.”

Ning Que said: “Don’t let go.”

“Let go.”

“Don’t let go.”

“Let go.”

“Don’t let it go… if you don’t let it go, don’t let it go.”

The Big Black Horse and the Lioness looked at each other, walked to the corner sensibly, pretending that they didn’t see or hear anything.

Ning Que just hugged Sangsang like this, as if he was about to hold it to the sea forever.

I don’t know how long it has passed. In short, the sea must have not turned into a mulberry field. Sangsang’s slightly raised head finally fell, so the two cheeks touched together, warm.

After a long time, after all, the handle of the axe must have not decayed into dust. Ning Que was sure that she would not run away again, and finally let go of her hands, grabbed her right hand, and led her to the bed. sit down.

Sitting side by side holding hands by the bed, not to divide the fruit, if the sangsang is put on the Xia Lin, it looks a bit like the wedding night, they were in the cave here.

“Follow me home.” Ning Que said to her.

Sangsang did not answer him, nor did he take his hand out of his hand, staring at the wind and snow outside the window.

Ning Que knew that she was not lost or lost, because she was a god, and she was still here.

“Follow me home.” He repeated.

Sangsang looked at him, and asked blankly: “Which home will you go back to? Which home is your earliest?”

This time it was Ning Que’s turn to remain silent.

Sangsang said: “The Master wants to break through my world because of his irresponsible desire for freedom. You want to break through my world so persistently, just want to return to that home? I have always wanted to know, when are you sure that you can return to your hometown by breaking my world?”

Ning Que shook her hand tightly, and after thinking about it, he said, “In fact, I guessed this a long time ago because there are also stars in the sky. Teacher finally became the moon.”

Sangsang raised his eyebrows slightly and asked: “What does this mean? He became the moon. It’s because you told him about the moon at sea that year. He thought the moon was beautiful, that’s all.”

“There is wind and snow.”

Ning Que pointed out the window and said, “There is also a sky full of stars, these are very unnecessary things…If your world is a closed and self-contained system, you don’t need the four seasons, but you have all of them. “

“Your world is very similar to the world I came from.”

He retracted his gaze out of the window, looked at her and said, “There is only one way to explain… This world is still in the world I knew before, and can be connected. At least it can be observed, because only observation can imitate To be so similar.”

Sangsang said indifferently: “You can observe, so I know what your world is like.”

Ning Que said: “That is a vast and free world.”

Sangsang said: “That is a cold and dead world.”

The passionate sun sprinkles life, and the endless space of the universe is waiting to be explored, so there is a vast and free world, but most of the space there is full of absolute cold and dead silence. Therefore, it is also a cold and dead world. Ning Que and Sangsang are not wrong because they have different positions.

Ning Que was silent for a long time, and then said: “The destiny of mankind is ultimately determined by mankind. You don’t need to continue to bear this responsibility. That would be too exhausting.”

Sangsang said: “I told you before. I love the world, only the world who loves me. The ancestors of the world chose me, and I will continue to take this responsibility.”

“This discussion is meaningless.”

Ning Que stopped the conversation very strongly, clutching her shoulders. Said: “You are my wife, you are pregnant with our children. You should come home with me.”

Sangsang looked at him quietly, for a long time, and said: “Do you miss me so much?”

Ning Que said: “That day you were sailing to the kingdom of God on the other side in a big ship. I tried to do something, but after all I didn’t do anything. You should know my attitude very well.”

Sangsang said: “But I also warned you that I am a collection of rules in this world. If you want to destroy this world, I cannot continue to exist.”

Ning Que said: “I was worried before, but now I don’t…because there is still a Haotian in the kingdom of God, and you have become a person now, you will be fine.”

Sangsang looked at him blankly and said: “How do you prove?”

Ning Que looked at her bulging abdomen and said, “Isn’t this proof yet?”

Sangsang stood up, walked to the window, looked into the distance, and said, “Protestantism has been spreading in the world for a long time, and Taoism has gradually declined, and I have become weaker and weaker. What does this mean?” /

This shows that she is still Haotian.

“It may also be because of…pregnancy?”

Ning Que walked behind her and said: “Pregnant women are vulnerable to weakness. You should remember that when the fat aunt was pregnant in Weicheng that year, she didn’t even have the energy to swear.”

“But you can’t prove it.”

Sangsang turned around and said, “Then I might still die.”

When she said this, there was no emotion on her face, she seemed calm and even indifferent to the extreme, but Ning Que saw great fear and sorrow in the depths of her eyes.

Because of the fear and sorrow, his heart aches.

“I’m really… very afraid of death.” Sangsang said blankly: “From the moment I woke up in the kingdom of God, I began to fear that I would die. I don’t want to die.”

She said calmly, her face wet with tears.

Sangsang rarely shed tears.

Haotian never shed tears.

Ning Que forgot how many years he hadn’t seen her cry, maybe years, or thousands of years.

He took her into his arms again and whispered: “Don’t be afraid, it’s okay, I won’t let you die.”

Sangsang still let him hold him as before, with his hands behind him.

This time, she leaned her head on his shoulder.

“They all want to kill me… They want to kill me, you also want to kill me, I can be killed now, so I am afraid, I am afraid that you will kill me.”

She looked calm, but she kept crying, strangely sad.

“No.”

Ning Que hugged her tightly and said: “If you are really scared, then don’t do it. Let’s go back to another home. If we don’t return to Weicheng, we will go back to Chang’an. The courtyard of Lao Bi Zhai is still there.” /

Sangsang said: “What about your home?”

Ning Que said: “I have forgotten it a long time ago.”

My heart and peace is my hometown.

Where can make you feel peaceful, it is your home.

Sangsang is his home.

It was like she was going to the other side, but she couldn’t return to the kingdom of God.

Because her other side is where he stands.

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